Ladies and gentlemen, let me tell you that I have been planning to â€œDanceâ€ again a year ago.Â Every time I think of my broken dream as a dancer, I often say to myself â€œMaybe I should Dance Again.â€Â And, it ends thereâ€¦ I didnâ€™t really commit to finding dance class or doing something about it.
One person asked me when I was confused on what to do with my life and careerâ€¦
â€œWhat do you want to do in life, regardless of money, time and other factors.Â What makes you happy?â€
I immediately said, â€œI want to Dance again.â€
Memories of A Dancing Era
I have been dancing since grade school.Â I remember the first time the teacher acknowledge that they liked how I dance when I was in Grade 2.Â Since at that age I was taller than my classmates, they put me at the back-ish of the dancers.Â (Donâ€™t ask me why I was taller then but Iâ€™m an inch short to 5â€).Â The teacher noticed me and put me on the first row despite the fact that I was tallâ€¦ I didnâ€™t know why she did that but I must have done something right 🙂
I wanted to take ballet lessons since then.Â I was so jealous of my classmates changing to their ballet clothes after the class for their ballet lessons.Â Our family couldnâ€™t afford dance lessons however.Â So I just moved onâ€¦
I thought I stopped dancing thereâ€¦ It was in grade 6 that this dancing thing took over my life.
I have a poor memory, but the only thing I can remember is that I found myself in an audition room.Â Our school competes every year with other schools for the Negros Occidental Private Schools Sports Cultural Educational Association (NOPSSCEA) literary division.Â There were 5 girls and 5 guys leftâ€¦ They only need to pick 4 pairsâ€¦Â They asked me to dance the pieceâ€¦Â My memory was blurry but all I remember is that I got the spot! 🙂
Ever since, I danced on every opportunity there isâ€¦ If some programs needed intermission numbers, we danced hiphop.Â We even danced in some seminars outside of school and it was totally fun because we were excused from our classes just to dance 🙂
Ahâ€¦ remembering all that is blissâ€¦
In high school, I continued dancing and competed for NOPSSCEA again.
It was also in high school that I discovered cheerleading.Â I was obsessed with it!Â Especially when at that time, the movie â€œBring it on 1â€ was very very popular.Â I watched it like 20 times I think and I memorized the lines already lol
I danced a lot during high school that pretty much my face was on every dancing gig ever.Â On my last day in high school, I received letters and gifts fromâ€¦ wellâ€¦ I guess I can say â€œFansâ€â€¦ they were students from the lower batches and.Â I couldnâ€™t believe I also served as an inspiration to themâ€¦ It really melted my heart ^_^
In college, I continued cheerleadingâ€¦
Okay, nobody knows except my college friends that I joined a Beauty Pageant lol.
There was a â€œTalent Portionâ€ of courseâ€¦
This was the first time I danced soloâ€¦
I must admit, I gave my all on that danceâ€¦ it was a mixture of ballet and hiphop.
After I danced, the crowd applauded like crazyâ€¦
I was in tearsâ€¦Â I was so HAPPY!
Why Iâ€™m sad 🙁
Notice the picturesâ€¦ they were just scans.
In my days, digital cameras are way expensive and I couldnâ€™t afford it.
My SOLID POINT:Â I wasnâ€™t able to capture my dancing era
ERGO:Â Itâ€™s as if it never happened!
What evidence would I show to my grandchildren?!?
My solo danceâ€¦ nobody captured it in video or even in stills.
I also stopped dancing after second year of college.Â My boyfriend at that time (now my ex obviously) wanted me to quit cheerleading and dancingâ€¦ He doesnâ€™t want other guys to get close to meâ€¦ You know in cheerleading where guys throw girls everywhere? yeahâ€¦ He was that jealous of a boyfriend who even didnâ€™t let me hang out with my girl friendsâ€¦ (haiz how I regret those days)
I gave up my crown as a dancer when I was in my second year of collegeâ€¦Â I had a lot of dancing engagements supposedly and I was supposedly a â€œleadâ€ dancer in many competitionsâ€¦ But I was stupid and I gave up dancingâ€¦ Now I let my best friend in college take over all of my dancing roles.
Who got the Special Literary Award for Dancing?
Not me of course 🙁
I cried when I realized what I gave up for some stupid love lifeâ€¦ College was done, I can not rewindâ€¦
Time for a Change
I must admit I got a little emotional writing thisâ€¦ Dancing is my passion and remembering my stupidity of letting love and immaturity take over me made me really hate myselfâ€¦
Itâ€™s time to renew myselfâ€¦
I need to move on from my horrid college memories and replace them with good ones.
Right now, my current boyfriend is very supportive of me dancing again :)Â Iâ€™m thinking â€“ any dance class will do!Â I love any dance!
Most important thingâ€¦ I am a performer.Â I love being on stage and perform.
I think, now is the time to make it happen againâ€¦
I Commit To Change
I shall Dance again!
I will find a dance class.Â Any, ballroom, hiphop, jazz, even pole dancingâ€¦
I am committed to UNBREAK my broken dreamâ€¦
Time to buy new dancing shoes 🙂
Committing to Change Can Make You a Winner
Do you also plan to change something in your life?
Perhaps becoming a more independent woman?
Changing boyfriends? (LOL) Iâ€™m just kiddingâ€¦
Want to go to school again?
Fulfilling your dreams?
Doing what you are passionate about?
Moving on with your career?
I know there must be somethingâ€¦ Why donâ€™t you join all other women committed to changing for the better.Â Not only will you be on your way to a new you, you would also get a chance to win Gift Certificates and other prizes if you post your commitment to change on I Commit To Change Facebook page.
You know what to doâ€¦ Are you ready for change within yourself?
to a better us,