Self-pity is a way of paying attention to oneself, albeit negatively; it is a means self-soothing or self-nurturing.
– Just got that description out of Wikipedia.
Apparently, it’s attempting to gain something out of yourself, then you fail. It’s like you helped yourself a lot of times to get someone’s attention, to get a job done and to get things done even just for yourself then you FAIL.
It’s like going on a diet and exercising over and over again, but you don’t get any skinnier. It’s like trying to be good in public speaking, but every time you try to speak in front of people, you stutter. You practiced your speech all night long, you looked stupid talking to yourself in the mirror as you try to practice your lines – then you froze in the middle of your sentence.
I think self pity happens when you did the best that you can, you gave all your heart out and you gave enough hard work anyone ever could ever expect of you – and then you FAIL.
It’s easy to fall trap into this world with your own self. A replica of you trying to bring you down and discourage you to try even harder.
Everyone must have experienced this too. It’s just a matter of facing it or probably just not taking ourselves way to seriously.
I have a friend who took the board exam – and she FAILed. She took it again , then she failed AGAIN. She took it one more time, and failed. On her 5th attempt to pass the board exam she PASSED.
Was she ever down? Did she feel really bad about herself? OF COURSE! But she didn’t let this little devil shadow of her own self take control of her.
If you really want something (and you’re honest that you really want it), and you try and believe“ you will get it.
Sometimes, it’s just also nice getting help from other people. People who are sensitive enough to think you need a little push are a blessing. But if people don’t help you, “HELP YOURSELF!
That’s one lesson I can share to you all. Don’t count on other people. You can’t control them, and definitely forcing them is not a solution. It’s nice to get some help from people if they offer. But if none, DO IT YOURSELF. Trust yourself to get things done on your own. You don’t have to need anyone.
This is just a story of a girl who’s trying to get over being down a lot, that’s why she created this blog so that she can feel good about herself. Most of the time you will see me smiling. But there are nights where I feel drained and vulnerable. Like I won’t even know if I would regret posting this blog post.
(I don’t make sense anymore do I?)
Anyway, looking forward to halloween!