I’d like to believe I’m at this level right now.
I love this feeling. Â It’s close to freedom, or maybe this is the essence of freedom.
I am at a point where I don’t get affected by what people say about me, or how they perceive me to be anymore 🙂
I am just happy, simply because I believe I am. Â My life is not perfect, and I accept that change is constant. Â But this feeling gives me peace. Â That whatever life throws at me, I know I will be alright 🙂
I’m just saying this now because I used to feel sensitive when people judge me. Â People judge me with the things I do, put stigma on my titles, scrutinize my writings, that I eat like a guy, – heck even people scrutinize me for my friends and who I hang out with, and some even criticize the decisions I make.
I thought a lot about these people before. Â I used to “care” a lot about what they have to say.
But then I realized – why should I?
That’s the reason why I’m not hanging out with these guys.
But I don’t hate them. Â I know people talk a lot behind other people’s backs. Â I am guilty of this sometimes, but I don’t strutt it in yow faces *snap* *snap* and I don’t share it to the world – oh how Social Media works sometimes, it’s crazy 🙂
You can just “make parinig” all the time (lol) – am I making parinig now? lol not really – I’m just making a general statement here to highlight the bad acts of human beings. Â Yes, including me… but sometimes I just try keep my bad thoughts and observations to myself if it doesn’t help another human being. Â What’s the point of spreading the hate? Â Why is it even so entertaining?
*Adlib: are you updated with Lloydie – Shaina – Ruffa issue* Â — why is their private life so entertaining? Â Seriously, bakit kaya?
Hay nako buhay – parang life!
Everyone could be a victim of scrutiny. Â But shrug it off your shoulder and just think – oh they think too much about me 🙂
As for now I’m happy doing the things I love, being with the people I love who love me back oh so dearly. Â I am glad to be surrounded by great people. Â To other people’s eyes, I may be a weakling – but most of you know that I never give up and I stand up every time I fall. Â And you know why I fall? Those negative people passing my way.
Some even say, “You should be like her, you should be like this, like that.” Â The more they say that to me, the more I’m repelled by the thought of copying other people… I have my own identity and I am who I am.
I know better now, you’ll have a hard time pulling me down.
I was a victim of bullying when I was in kindergarten. Â My grandma had to fight for me because I don’t fight back. Â (I love you Wawa!) Â Since then, I got scared of making friends. Â I think until now, I am just really careful. Â I also struggled in school before. Â I used to get high grades, I get to perform a lot, and I get the guys’ admiration whom most of the girls have been crushing on… (and I don’t even wear makeup or pluck my eyebrows)
And they take it against me..
oh the crab mentality.
Okay, this post is taking too long. Â One moment popped upon another leading me to share my story.
As for everyone reading this. Â Don’t let people pull you down. Â Make it hard for them to make you fall into pieces, but if ever they succeed, it’s still okay. Â It’s alright, everything is going to be fine. Â Just rise up when you’ve gathered strength. Â When you’re lacking strength, talk to me 🙂 you know how to Contact me.
A few of my readers reached out to me before… Â I don’t help them achieve whatever they want to achieve, I help them find strength.
Ah, this world is a mess, and everyone has their own share of distress.
Accept this, recognize your TRUE friends, acknowledge yourself – you’re good to go. Â The world is not perfect, they are not perfect either no matter how they perceive to be. Â I used to care a lot about my resume, my awards, achievements – etc… and I realized sometimes I’m just after the title. Â Because that’s what everyone seems to be after — but I’m done chasing it… I thought it was my cheese – my goals that would make me happy.. but I discovered otherwise.
Find inner peace 🙂 Â As for me, Pole dancing helped 😛
You should try to discover and find yours. Â It may be through music, art – a business … Explore 🙂
Everything will be alright 🙂