I love this feeling.  It’s close to freedom, or maybe this is the essence of freedom.

I am at a point where I don’t get affected by what people say about me, or how they perceive me to be anymore 🙂

I am just happy, simply because I believe I am.  My life is not perfect, and I accept that change is constant.  But this feeling gives me peace.  That whatever life throws at me, I know I will be alright 🙂

I’m just saying this now because I used to feel sensitive when people judge me.  People judge me with the things I do, put stigma on my titles, scrutinize my writings, that I eat like a guy, – heck even people scrutinize me for my friends and who I hang out with, and some even criticize the decisions I make.

I thought a lot about these people before.  I used to “care” a lot about what they have to say.

But then I realized – why should I?

That’s the reason why I’m not hanging out with these guys.

But I don’t hate them.  I know people talk a lot behind other people’s backs.  I am guilty of this sometimes, but I don’t strutt it in yow faces *snap* *snap* and I don’t share it to the world – oh how Social Media works sometimes, it’s crazy 🙂

You can just “make parinig” all the time (lol) – am I making parinig now? lol not really – I’m just making a general statement here to highlight the bad acts of human beings.  Yes, including me… but sometimes I just try keep my bad thoughts and observations to myself if it doesn’t help another human being.  What’s the point of spreading the hate?  Why is it even so entertaining?

*Adlib: are you updated with Lloydie – Shaina – Ruffa issue*  — why is their private life so entertaining?  Seriously, bakit kaya?

Hay nako buhay – parang life!

Everyone could be a victim of scrutiny.  But shrug it off your shoulder and just think – oh they think too much about me 🙂

As for now I’m happy doing the things I love, being with the people I love who love me back oh so dearly.  I am glad to be surrounded by great people.  To other people’s eyes, I may be a weakling – but most of you know that I never give up and I stand up every time I fall.  And you know why I fall? Those negative people passing my way.

Some even say, “You should be like her, you should be like this, like that.”  The more they say that to me, the more I’m repelled by the thought of copying other people… I have my own identity and I am who I am.

I know better now, you’ll have a hard time pulling me down.

I was a victim of bullying when I was in kindergarten.  My grandma had to fight for me because I don’t fight back.  (I love you Wawa!)  Since then, I got scared of making friends.  I think until now, I am just really careful.  I also struggled in school before.  I used to get high grades, I get to perform a lot, and I get the guys’ admiration whom most of the girls have been crushing on… (and I don’t even wear makeup or pluck my eyebrows)

And they take it against me..

oh the crab mentality.

Okay, this post is taking too long.  One moment popped upon another leading me to share my story.

As for everyone reading this.  Don’t let people pull you down.  Make it hard for them to make you fall into pieces, but if ever they succeed, it’s still okay.  It’s alright, everything is going to be fine.  Just rise up when you’ve gathered strength.  When you’re lacking strength, talk to me 🙂 you know how to Contact me.

A few of my readers reached out to me before…  I don’t help them achieve whatever they want to achieve, I help them find strength.

Ah, this world is a mess, and everyone has their own share of distress.

Accept this, recognize your TRUE friends, acknowledge yourself – you’re good to go.  The world is not perfect, they are not perfect either no matter how they perceive to be.  I used to care a lot about my resume, my awards, achievements – etc… and I realized sometimes I’m just after the title.  Because that’s what everyone seems to be after — but I’m done chasing it… I thought it was my cheese – my goals that would make me happy.. but I discovered otherwise.

Find inner peace 🙂  As for me, Pole dancing helped 😛

You should try to discover and find yours.  It may be through music, art – a business … Explore 🙂

Everything will be alright 🙂

Be happy!

xoxo,

Flaircandy

So help me guys, what makes you happy?

Money? Hobbies? Career? Success? Loved ones?

Is happiness constant? How do you feed your happiness?

Share your thoughts below 🙂